A little while back I got tested for diabetes, the results came back negative however something is up with my liver, and apparently it’s very likely that I have a genetic condition. I don’t know the exact name of it but it causes yellowness around the eyes? or something like that.
I have to get tested for it again but I’ve been told that it’s very likely that’s what I have.
In terms of other health my knees are not great, no. Scratch that actually, they weren't great for a long time, now they are worse than ever. They have just taken a completely bad turn. I’ve had to get x-rays done last week (Results still aren’t back) and it’s so frustrating because I WANT something to show up on them, the last time I had x-rays they came back normal and I was just discharged completely.
If something is there it will be such a big step in diagnosing what this pain is, why I have it and were it’s source is. At this point I just care about knowing just what is wrong with me, instead of going in circles.
Pain is a big problem, but I dont take painkillers anymore, I built up a bit of an immunity to paracetemol and standard painkillers due to taking them for severe menstrual cramps. So now only the really strong stuff works, however it can be very addicting and causes big side effects, tiredness, dulling the senses etc. So I really don’t like taking them.
the pain is also concerning me because I plan to go back to university now in a few weeks, I had to drop out last October because of the pain, I have learned that I was not made for staying at home all the time, it is just not good mentally. I need projects to work on, lectures, classes, meeting with my friends.
So I honestly don’t know how I’m going to manage university, there is also my mother. Who has a lot of conditions, the most severe is problems with her spine which will require surgery (I’m looking after her as well)
All I can really do at the moment is wait. Wait for x-ray results to most likely come back negative, wait to see if there is a slight chance I can get to a specialist, wait to see how the pain will be with university, wait to see how I will manage university, a job and nursing a sick mother whilst caring for younger brothers.